Just randomly wondering about my life. My love life? Speechless...

Nothing to say or maybe there's something, but i just don't know how to say it. I wanna say i hope, but hoping is just sucks anyway!

False hope, really CHOKE me to death! Arghh!

I just NEED someone to be there for me. Just that someone who could be by my side.

Be the listening ears, having the shoulder to cry on, getting to hug for some comfy.

But im afraid, i'll get the wrong one. Not every right choices turns out right. Some are Sweet and some are Sour. People change. Maybe cause of SHITS!

ITS ALL FUCKING DISTRACTIONS!!!

Who could really be my Advicer, a Lover and also a Motivater at the same time. Its easy. They just need to UNDERSTAND my LIFE. UNDERSTAND ME n MY SITUATIONS. I did share some stuff with some friends. The worst is the one that PRETEND to listen when they only says OK. Then nothing else, FULLSTOP. SUCKER!!

Maybe. i give too much faces to people around me. I've tried helping people around me, even on Financial problem.

And i don't get anything back in return??

even the TWO WORD "thank you"

FUCK YOU ALL!!

I can't even stand my own dad, who ask me for help?! Damn.

It sucks having this FUCKING mood to swing up and down so randomly! I hated blasting off at my innocence friends. ARGHH! SUCK! but im lucky, cause my girls are very patience, they understand and they will know when my monster comes.

I just wanna be hold tight. To be shown that he really do. AND NEVER SAYS BORED!! Dumbass!

But.... i've got nothing more to say.

Im just not myself.

- I'll be happier if im Dead now -