All im doing now is just thinking and wondering.
I don't feel right. Im just worry here.
Its sucks.

I wanted to pick up the phone and dial your number..
but would you pick it up? hm...im don't think so.
I felt like being alone just now and even now and if can,
everytime that i felt down..but im so restless and worry..
what else i could do right.

How are you doing there?
Hope you're doing fine.
You don't have to hurt yourself, cause you already did.

Why is it always about us. Its damn damn irritating.
You've changed, i told you this.
Changed to the best but it is just those questions and
doubts of yours is hunting and hurting you.
Then it affects me badly and it affects us terribly..
Then everything fall apart, again and again and again.

I know my doings now is not right. Im rude.
I did this purposely. Im sorry. I can't be too carring right.
I wanted to hear your voice every night. Happy voice..
but since this happens..i don't want. Im lazy with all your questions,
doubts, anger, sadness and anything that pulls us down..
Its a mistake you did and i did that i believe we could learn from.

In your phone. that you borrowed me. I wrote down
my feelings at the draft. When its time for me to return
it back to you, look around and read it.

I treasure and cherish every moments im with you.
Especially our latest outing together.

Went to a Promo of Wild Wild Wet
and Escape Theme Park. Its really a great day. I don't want to
bother thinking about the night. I don't give a damn.
That day. i get to know you deeper. Its great! Plus damn funny!
Hhahaahahak!

Isnt it WEIRD when entering the " Haunted House II"..
where the Girl is at the front and the Guy is hiding at the back??
Thats awesome! Hahahhahaahak!!
The whole day was okay..i like when we're eating chicken.
Its all damn cleaned up into our stomach. Hehehehe!

Its also about me.
Im too sensitive.
Why?
Cause im scared..
Why?


because.....

Enough is enough.


I don't live to live my past.