Life is lame.
It is just hopeless. I can't see any point. Im here maybe
just to help some love once out, then im done. Isn't
it suppose to be my happiness too? What's my thinking.
I don't even know. Everything is rushing in head aimlessly.
I hate it so much. I wanna be free. I wanna feel free.
Free from all those sadness and miserable things.
I've had enough. Im too dry to get wet again. But whatever
it is, i will still get wet. There's always a night that i'll soak
my pillow. What is it about now in life..?
Giving myself space. Giving myself happiness. Whatever shyt
it is, i won't give a damn. How am i gonna get happiness..?
Maybe it comes from deep in me, thinking of who i really am.
Im smiling, yes i may seem happy. Once the moon rises, the
pressure would rises too. Everything is a shyt. Which devil
that i had turned into. I see no point being good to humans too.
If there's no such thing as reality, i would be the most happiest
and free girl of all. I'll go fly around the world, doing what i've
always been wanted,with hairah. Smiling & laughing aways
without any sadness or pressure that would strikes and spoils me.
How is it gonna be now..? I just hope i could hold myself longer.
Lets take thing real real slowly. When school ends, 1 shit pressure
is out. When work end, 2 shit pressure is out. But when my
relationship ends, maybe pressure comes in more then 2times.
With love...or without love..my pressure will always stucks deep
in head, that i feels like breaking it up and burn them all.
Thats why, im lazy to fall in love but i know i appreciate from him.
I've to be strong and keep going on. This is the downs in life.
Let tolerate and find the ups. I don't wanna lose myself too.
