My world deep inside me is shaking. Everything seems
to fall apart. How much longer can i carry this load
in my head. Im too weak or the pressure is just too strong.
What else will appear in my life to destroy me. How
hard for me to control just by being myself. I didn't
know i was so lost. So lost in the world of ' i don't know
who am i '.. Im too weak..How can i get myself back.
Im afraid of little fights. Not with my enemy but with
my love once. Its too hurt to see myself losing my temper
and saying mean things. Being so rude and totally not
me. No patience, nothing and all there is..just to
blow evrything out,to make myself satisfied.
Mood swings. Its not suppose to be in my list. Is
something wrong with me or im just over reacting.
Hm..i dun think so..i've tried making myself calm.
Instead, i'll get more restless and uncomfirtable.
I knew i need space for myself..
and i knew i need my bestfriend beside me.
Every gig i went to, i was smiling all the way. Really
enjoying and missing me being me with the others.
Just wanna thank you guys for making me smile, at least.
And for you fiz..
thanks so much fr trying your best to be by my side.
