The weights is all pressing on my mind. Im still feeling
so pressurize even tough all my school's projects had finished.
I tought i'll be more calm after all this things is done, but it
seems to be worst.

What the hell is wrong with this life of mine?

Mom and Dad had damned me. Now some conflicts at home.
I tought they'll understand me cause i just want my own time
to be alone late night, but things seem to be worst again.
I don't wanna fight back with them cause i've had enough rebelling
and defiance towards them. I see no point cause after all,
i'll still love them & somemore, its the Month of so called "SAINT".
I've no heart to even raise my voice towards them.

I seem to be smiling and be more happier when friends are
around me. I did enjoy my time with them, having a laugh and
having a say. But its damn sucks when im all alone. My mind tends
to think and wonder too much, way too much.

I can't stay home. Perhaps, I dont't wanna be at home,
I don't even wanna be in my room. I'll feel so restless
and agitated to get out. I need fresh air! hm..
What could I do to distract myself from all this shyts in my
mind. Smoking is one Great Way but somehow, i know some
people say it lame, or whatever shyt!! Be in my shoe and you'll
sure understand more!! Im so frustrated with life. Can't wait
for all this shyts to over, but when??

im better of be dead.

-imy. f-